Happy Sad

I'm in a weird place...I'm excited to watch lil man grow and learn. It's so exciting to see how proud he is of his own accomplishments. He squeals with delight.  He's got "mom" and "momma" down finally. So I love hearing that!! Of course my world stops when he says it and whatever he wants,…

FML for real…

You guys...seriously...this fucking black cloud... So I'm struggling with paying day care on top of bills. I'm not sure how I'm gonna make it all work. I'm applying for second jobs, better paying jobs...nothing is panning out. I started direct sales to supplement as I can...it's something, but not enough...anyhow, here's where it starts to…

PlanningĀ 

Well, I'm planning our last first birthday. I'm putting all my effort in to this one, crafting decorations, making fun treats...the ideas are pouring out. Trying as much as possible to keep the budget small as the summer is a hard time for money with us. But it's gonna be the best.  I've already had…

Another Week

I had another off week. I'm not sure what's going on with me.  Another job rejection. Pain from the accident. Lack of sleep. Frustration over the increase in day care (1 week away). Tired of being let down. The upcoming last first birthday of my lil baby. Too much on my plate. I swear I…

Pictures Can SpeakĀ 

Pictures can speak a thousand words...have you ever looked at your eyes in a picture and you can see your pain, your sadness, your misery? Do you wonder if anyone else can see that?  Today, I took a selfie this morning for my business and I looked at myself and thought, WOW, you look so…

Mother’s Day

Did you know that May is PPD awareness month? Me neither. They really don't do a good job sharing this awareness month. Not one of my friends posted it on Facebook. Not one viral mention of it anywhere. How are we supposed to get better if we can't talk about it? We're supposed to hide…

One of them days…weeks…

Do you ever wonder if you can get through a day without crying?  I'm having one of those weeks.  All the shit is just too much. Like what the fuck have I done that's so terrible that karma has decided to leave a black cloud over my life?!  I'm a bitch, but I'm not a…

FML

Do you ever get tired of all the bullshit? Like just shit storm after shit storm happens and you're sick of it. This black cloud over my house can go away, any time now!!  We were in an accident Friday. Mostly minor. Baby is suffering from emotional trauma. I'm sore. The 9 year old is…

F*** It

Just when you think you're getting back to "normal", you get hit by a fucking Mac Truck. I'm completely shocked, overwhelmed and heartbroken. Not to mention suffering from a killer migraine.  So I had a shitty day care for months. Lil man would cry when I dropped him off, he was crying when I picked…